ana4life07 ([info]ana4life07) wrote,
@ 2007-10-23 19:41:00
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DAY ONE
Today I got to 5pm and not a morsel.  I would have been happy except I knew my boyfriend was going to make me eat.  I'm finding it really difficult, impossible really, trying to hide from my family the fact that IT is back.  IT was never really gone, I was always the same inside and now I have taken the decision, I have to make what's outside match.  My boyfriend hates my ana, and I have to keep it from him to avoid losing him, yet he says he hates it when I lie and I know he would never lie to me.  How can I have ana without losing them?  

Please add me to your friends list, I would love to support you if I can and I need a friend, someone who understands.  Please can you tell me how to join a community, if it would be ok with you if I join?

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[info]lil_bunny7
2007-10-24 06:11 am UTC (link)
Yeah it sucks trying to hide it. It's hard not to lose someone because of it... because even if you told them the truth they would still have a problem wtih it, so they would still leave you over time. I hope things work out babe. Keep my posted and I could use your support to.

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[info]zombie_hero
2007-10-25 09:47 am UTC (link)
It never really goes away. Comes in and out, in phases. But its always in the back of your mind. Its hard to rewire the way you THINK & LIVE.

I told my boyfriend recently about my ED, and although he's not supporting it, hes not condeming it either. I think..honestly, that he doesn't care enough to have an opinion.

I wish I could offer some sort of advice. I've lost a LOT of friends over this, and it makes me sad to know that people greet anorexia/bulemia/ect, with ANGER. I don't understand why they think its such a personal attack on them. I hope that someday you and your boyfriend can sit down and talk about it, in an open way that doesn't seem decietful or wrong. We have to live with this, and as any other disorder, it doesn't magicly go away because someone wants you to eat.

I hope this comment has made SOME sort of sense. It's 6 am and I'm living on coffee and cigarettes at this point.

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